i made a list of one hundred things.
one hundred things i would like to do at age 27.
many are simple things I feel i need to do as to become a better version of myself. Some are things i just haven't gotten around to doing. A few are things I've always dreamed of.
In this slice of internet they will be listed and explained as realized. Wish me luck.
goodbye 2010. (hopefully these things as well)
1. cats. well, photos. videos. conversations, art about them anyway. (they are only using you)
2. new jersey. the shore. the show. snooki- the trash can from the beautiful northern hudson valley.
3. 2012 premonitions based on tv and movies.
4. the daily news and ny post. (or at least their “donations” to the public schools of new york city. ugh
5. “vampire” bullshit.
a pipe dream. a week late.
i sit on the foot of my bed. waiting. it’s still not time to leave. rearrange a few things, recheck my bag making sure it’s all still in there. check the time. walk slow, that’s the key! walk in slower motion. that’s exhausting. just walk. i get on the D train heading to manhattan. and i wait.
stop at uptown juice bar, nothing i want. stop at salvation army, nothing i want. go to the train station. get ticket. throw in back pocket. go to duane reade. nothing i want. panic about where i put ticket. find said ticket in back pocket. smoke. wait for train. glance at sign. see train has arrived. see train has departed. realize i am an idiot and waited at wrong platform. berate self. berate self. cry. phone rings. admit being an idiot. weep. answer new call admit while weeping, then chat about nonsense. hell, i have an hour to kill…
parental units pick up idiot (adult) child from train station. father turns onto the exit ramp of highway with out mother noticing (runs in family?) we proceed to journey home. nearly escaping death.
arrive home. younger sister and i meet eyes. “want to exchange presents?” spills from my mouth.
she concurs. we proceed.
younger brother appears. same results.
after “family presents” have been opened all fall blissfully asleep.
except me. i sleep on a bed that once might have been a mattress, but now fifty years later is a stone. i sleep on a stone mountain.
friends, family, countrymen,
The wikileaks thing is a serious situation. We and the world are now given a glimpse inside what our government is up to. It is not a pretty picture. It involves reading, connection making, and an arrangement which is hard to visualize. SNL might parody certain messages this week, yet it truly involves more thought. We are speaking of information that most of did not know existed for over forty years. It will have a huge impact worldwide despite the “situation” the informant is in. I hope you will all read and retain as much information as you are able to. As who knows how long it will be available. It’s not a joking matter, we are at the early stages and it’s not looking too good. Read, Learn, Act. Suddenly, not being able to find your other sock, well, it really shouldn’t matter. Read up.